Weeks 12-13

our little pumpkin is about the size of a peach today

April 8, 2012

So close to the second trimester - one more week.  It's not like I have had a horrible first trimester though.  I'm grateful that I didn't have the morning or all day sickness; only a bit of nausea here and there.  I still have some food aversions but I've noticed my appetite increasing over the past few days.

Maybe the hormonal mood swings will slow down a bit too. I've noticed for about the past 3 weeks that everything seems to make me cry or very angry.  Most of the time I can control my extreme emotion but sometimes I look back and think how irrational I was such as my hatred of our Chili's waitress for not putting my dressing on the side. It still makes me angry to think about it.

Perhaps the biggest swings lately have been centered around the thought of moving for Steve a job.  Every time I even thought about Kentucky I burst into tears.  I've been able to be a little more open minded with other possibilities in TN and FL but it's an up and down thing.  I think that I'm starting to get to a place of peace that God has a reason for sending us or keeping us wherever although I'm sending louder prayers that we'll stay around friends and family.  Seriously, I'm going to need a little support with the raising of a child; I hope God keeps that in mind:)

Besides the stress of considering places to settle down with this little pumpkin, it's been a pretty busy/fun two weeks.  I've been busy at work on a grant and interviewing new Wellness Ambassadors.  Steve came home Wednesday night - Dash and I were very excited to see him. I've also had to entertain Dash while Steve was gone.

This weekend baby Ryder got to run his/her first race, The Crescent City Classic, my favorite running race ever.  This was also his or her 2nd trip on Bourbon St., not sure how healthy that was. We had a great time though and I was actually able to run all 6.2 miles it was a slow 9:25 pace but I did it.  I was pretty impressed with myself since I've been too exhausted to run more than 3 for a while now.  This weekend was also Easter which meant time at my family's in Picayune. I definitely ate enough for me and the pumpkin.

Here's what's going on now:

Physically:

I'm constantly pooped.  I have very little motivation to be active or do work.  I like sleep and find nothing wrong with going to bed at 7:30pm. I still have some food aversions but have been able to expand my diet a bit. I haven't had too many cravings what I want is constantly changing but I do find that it often centers around potatoes from baked potatoes, french fries and potato salad I seem to be loving the spud lately.

This past week I've gotten a little concerned that I don't have a bump yet since others who are about the same week as me are starting to show or at least getting into bigger clothes.  I'm ready for the visible bump that proves baby Ryder is in there. I know everyone is different but I guess I just want a little more confirmation sometimes, especially since I haven't experienced much of the other symptoms.

Emotional:

I feel like I cry or at least get teary eyed a lot. I don't know if it's the thought of all the future changes, my tiredness or if I can actually blame it on hormones but there is something going on to make me fine one moment and then either extremely angry or sad the next.  There is also the fear and worry that something will still go wrong.  I think I live from appointment to appointment for that reassurance that everything is alright.

Jenny, Laura, Me and Lindsey ready to run

a rare gathering of all three sisters